I AM NOT FUCKING CRAZY

<*ALCOHOL * WARNING*>
I'm just stressed out. In the last couple weeks I have helped hire and fire a dozen or so people. We are projecting the biggest spring the company has ever had, today was day fourteen in a row of work for me, with at least eleven of those days being 10 hours plus. Before ten am I had already helped unload 2 trucks, sent a person home sick, driven across town to finalize company shirts, and oh yeah, I landed a 20,000 to 30,000 dollar landsacpe design job in my spare time. I finished another landscape, drafted out, packaged pretty for some asshole home owner that does,t really care what went in it in the first place. This was before lunch. Somewhere around noon I must have looked a little dazed as the 3rd truck of the day rolled in because they sent me to lunch. I had a beer and chicken fingers, and then I went back and had a mini breakdown in the office. I have about 30 people wanting everything done yesterday, meanwhile I can't even remember my phone number. I must have looked crazier than I really was because I got the rest of the day off, a 15 % raise, and I don't have to be back til monday. I am not fucking crazy, I am overworked, underfriended lately, and tired. I will be driving east tomorrow, toward Lake Charles, I intend to drink with an old frind , gamble with strangers, and possibly get arrested for public nudity, or maybe pissing on a town monument. I do this all fully knowing that I AM NOT FUCKING CRAZY!

Your Ideal Pet is a Big Dog

You're both energetic, affectionate, and a bit goofy. And neither of you seem to mind very slobbery kisses!

What's Your Ideal Pet?

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

This Love by Maroon 5

"I was so high I did not recognize The fire burning in her eyes The chaos that controlled my mind" You were so great in 2004 that you make everyone a little bit sick!

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

Your Personality Is Like Acid

A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict. One moment you're in your own little happy universe... And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

You Are a Centaur

In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person. However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways. You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order. You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Your Theme Song is Beautiful Day by U2

"Sky falls, you feel like It's a beautiful day Don't let it get away" You see the beauty in life, especially in ordinary everyday moments. And if you're feeling down, even that seems a little beautiful too.

What's Your Theme Song?

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

You Are Gonzo the Great

"Is something burning in here? Oh, it's just me." You're a total nutball who will do anything for attention. The first to take a dare, you'll pull almost any stunt. You're one weird looking creature, but your chickens don't mind!

The Muppet Personality Test

NICE !@%**!*~$*!

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Charming Monk. Where You Lived: West Africa. How You Died: Suicide.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

Your Driving Is is: 54% Male, 46% Female

According to studies, you drive both like a guy and a girl. This means you're a pretty average driver, with typical quirks. Occasionally you're frustrated and or a little reckless, but that's the exception - not the norm.

Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

Bite me

Some people are so full of shit you can almost smell the turds when they walk by... it's easy to be a big fish in a small pond, and nine hundred other cliches i could say right now, but sometimes it's better to just keep ones mouth shut. This is to no one in particular...

The brightest star

the wind blows through the chimes
and i hear decades passing
the breeze kisses my face
and i can only sit silent

a thousand empty memories swim
each making puddles in my mind
every moment hanging on to the last
as if the chain will hold no longer

moments spent making moments
minutes spent making hours
until finally i realize
that the stars are just as bright
even when no one is looking


somedays i spend so much time worrying that no one notices me, afraid that i will just be another cog, i spend so much time caring what other people think that i forget to notice myself

The Plant Kingdom

This week has been nuts. On a high note, creepy guy got fired on my day off, which had nothing to do with me, so when he goes nuts and comes back with his machete, i can be all, "don't blame me dude i was off that day." My boss is still on a crazy hiring spree. Last week he hired an 18 year old kid, that hasn't combed her hair since 6th grade. (Apparently this is a cool look) The he made me fire her because she broke more stuff in 2 days than the money she earned. This weeks crazy is a swedish guy. I'll call him swedish fish, he is uber sensitive and couldn't understand why I refused to explain again why he could be on his cell phone for 20 minutes at a time. (Welcome to america fishy, we at least pretend to look busy.) The other fun kid didn't show up, no call, no show, so when he finally sobered up and drove in we fired him, he cried so the boss rehired him. He has potential though. The last few days have been nothing short of hell, he is my personal work slave. I told him he could come back under the condition that he knew he would pick up every shitty job this week and not complain. I never realized how many cruel shitty jobs I could make up. Today he swept dirt on paths on our 4 acre lot. Not just swept, scooped and hauled to the dumpster. He looked like pigpen. I'm going to keep him. At least I'm not as bad as the other manager, she's just evil, the kind that will move the table 2 inches to the left after you carried it 4 blocks, then take all the credit. She truely is evil. The only good news is it's spring, and I'm outside in the sunshine(surrounded by morons)but in the sunshine none the less. I feel fortunate that these are my troubles. My life is good, I'm healthy, and short of a little rant on my blog now and then everything is right in my world.

Ha ha ha

You Are 0% Homophobic

You're open minded, tolerant, and accepting. And you're not homophobic in the least :-)

Are You Homophobic?

You Are a Traveler Soul

You're a thrill seeker who loves to be active and on the move You love to wander: between places, ideas, and people. A good communicator, you're a nonconformist and interested in the world. You are an explorer, a good storyteller, and a true dreamer. Because you're always on the move, you can be a bit fickle. It's difficult for you to make personal commitments. Don't be so quick to ignore emotional issues and problems. You're much more intuitive and psychic than you think. Souls you are most compatible with: Retrospective Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are 60% Texas

At first, you seem Texan... but just because a chicken has wings don't mean it can fly.

How Texas Are You?

You Should Be A Poet

You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways. And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery... Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever. You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Enough is plenty

I sat in the computer room tonight with a glass of red wine. I had the music ready, a fire blazing, a small box filled with sparkling jewels. The only thing missing was you. You walked through the door, and the last eight years of my life melted into a single moment. I saw you and me, sitting on a dark porch in north chattanooga, you sat behind me, and held me, and I knew thats where I would be forever. In your arms.
I'm writing this tonite, I'll tell you later when we go to bed to read it tomorrow morning. I want you to marry me. Civil union me, whatever we have to call it, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. When I take you out of the picture there is just me, and I am never enough, I will never be enough without you, I never was enough without you. When we danced in the living room tonight with the dogs and the cat running around, I realized that this is my life, and I love it. I love you. You make me feel like I am enough...

They didn't have you where I come from
Never knew the best was yet to come
Life began when I saw your face
And I hear your laugh like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

I slip in bed when you're asleep
To hold you close and feel your breath on me
Tomorrow there'll be so much to do
So tonight I'll drift in a dream with you

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

As you wander through this troubled world
In search of all things beautiful
You can close your eyes when you're miles away
And hear my voice like a serenade

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up

How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough, is forever enough
How long do you want to be loved
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up
Is forever enough
Cause I'm never, never giving you up
~The Dixie Chicks

Viva la Mexico

You're Mexico!

While some people think you're poor and maybe a little corrupt, you
know where it's at, enjoying good food and nice beaches.  You like to take things a
little slower than those around you, and you really wish the air were cleaner, but sometimes
compromises must be made.  For some reason, Chevrolet keeps trying to sell you Novas
as well, even though they don't really go.


Take the Country Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid

I hate these ... but I can't help it.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Books are cool

You're The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe!

by C.S. Lewis

You were just looking for some decent clothes when everything changed
quite dramatically. For the better or for the worse, it is still hard to tell. Now it
seems like winter will never end and you feel cursed. Soon there will be an epic
struggle between two forces in your life and you are very concerned about a betrayal
that could turn the balance. If this makes it sound like you're re-enacting Christian
theological events, that may or may not be coincidence. When in doubt, put your trust
in zoo animals.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

I'm a lyin'

You're a Lion!

Wherever your particular jungle might be, you are considered king or
queen. With a noble yet relaxed air, you are able to control those around you by
implied threat of force. There are those that would attempt to tame you, or even
call you yellow, but you know that you're far too bold for that. You've often been
seen hanging out on the steps of public libraries. Your favorite US state is
Maine.


Take the Animal Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Todays crazy

Today crazy guy demonstrated how one could carry wind chimes in the giant holes in his ears. Put down the chimes, stared into space and said... I think I better get my pills.... Afew minutes later he said, I'm crazy i have papers...he didn't laugh, so we aren't sure if it was a joke...

perhaps it's that northern humor...yeah, i'll just go with that...

Happy Anny Lady!

On a brighter note, these are the flowers I got my hun today part of her anniversary present. I made the arrangement myself, not to shabby!

Creepy guy update

day 3: creepy new guy turns to me outta the blue and says:
"I need some sage for a ceremony thing, know where i can get some."

I almost asked what kinda ceremony, but the fear of actually knowing what kind it was stopped me. The less I know the better!

The dude has a hole in his ear big enough for me to hoola hoop in....sheesh... criminals and crazies... i'm like a weirdo magnet

he also asked if he could listen to his ipod because he only likes death metal and the classical music was driving him nuts

nuts...nuts... get the f@$&*^^# back outside and work the music ain't for you jim bob!!!!

What would you do?

So here it is, my what would you do
how would you feel segment.

My boss hired a new guy this week, extra help/seasonal work yada yada. In the guys first day at work he let's everyone know he is on probation, and just spent 4 years in the pen for statutory rape. In his words..." she looked old enough." Today he makes a comment out of the blue that he keeps a machete in his car. I am suppose to close up shop by my self with this loon tomorrow, and my manager doesn't understand why I just can't look past his record and give him a second chance. I'll tell you why, if a grown man has sex with a child just because the child says it's okay, he is still evil. The same great fella was kicked out of another town for soliciting as well, it's obvious this guy has some issues, I don't feel safe around someone that is dumb enough to tell me all of his illegal undertakings, and then knowingly tell me his carries weapons. Is my concern unjustified? I just don't think some people get second chances, especially anyone with the word RAPE in the crime they committed, I'm just confused on this one....

Another Day in Paradise