Wednesday, August 30

Beth Hart Rocks

Bottle Of Jesus

"I know my neighbors wish I'd die
I'm much too loud when I get high
I think I'll send around some pie
I'll spike that dish with a touch of herb
It'll numb their lips
And soothe their nerves
I'll build my kingdom on the curb

Break out the bottle of Jesus
Plug in the black light rosary
Somebody's waiting to save me "

Bloody Red and Damn Fine

drunken rant stop now if you choose....

"Its a pretty good crowd for a saturday
And the manager gives me a smile
cause he knows that its me theyve been comin to see
To forget about life for a while
And the piano,
it sounds like a carnival
And the microphone smells like a beer
And they sit at the bar and put bread in my jar
And say, man, what are you doin here? "

I originally thought it would be a rant, but now as i sip this bloody mary, i really don't feel it anymore, so to all of the assholes, and you know who you are , oh sweet bloody mary you know who you are, a toast, a twist of lemon, a dash of pepper, and you are but a sweet faded fuzzy memory. THANKS VODKA, HELPING ERASE ASSHOLES SINCE 1995. Fuck you and the horse you rode in on buddy, this is my world....

Monday, August 28

Week (weak) days

This week has been really weird. I have pushed my mental fiber in ways I shouldn't. I have allowed the thought monster in. I have let stress pull rank on me. As a result I feel mentally and emotionally beat up. Work has been a challenge, a bully want to be boss was back this week while the real boss was outta town, she constantly plants seeds of negativity because she has a low self image. A short pow wow with the real boss today resolved those issues and left my shoulders a little lighter. Still the week feels like a challenge. It's one of those times in life where little insights come to light, not enough to dig them up completely and make them reality, but enough to feel them looming . Last night I had a dream that S. didn't love me anymore. Not that she hated me, I think I could recover from that, but the depth of hurt I felt knowing I wasn't loved, even in a dream shook me, it really rocked me hard. What is it with me lately? What is this puppy dog need? I have nothing but loyalty to anyone that I care about, except myself...
Why is that???


"Cast me gently into morning, for the night has been unkind, take me to a place so holy, that I can wash this from my mind, the memory of choosing not to fight..."

the little things

I ordered pizza online and they said it would be here at 8:11, and at 8:11, it was really here. Pizza yummy goodness

Thursday, August 24

Waiting Words

Cold fingers find waterfalls of words,
as if the hands have told the mind they will write this one,
moments linger in the still night air,
disconnected your heart beats life onto the page.

Stopping, walking away, thinking, sitting back down,
the body still flowing with the rythm of the now passed day,
where have you been? (ask me again?)
i think i have been hiding.

The predawn hours hold nothing but words.
The letters slowly form page by page,
remembering the ease of composure
when the heart and head are full.

Thoughts begin to resonate inside,
a whirlwind of memories swirling all around,
where have you been?(ask me again?)
i think i have been waiting.

Wednesday, August 23

Insomniac quiz theater

What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort.
You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.
You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself.
Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it.
For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.
Inside the Room of Your Soul

Addictive little things these quizes are!

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange
At Your Highest:
You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.
At Your Lowest:
You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.
In Love:
You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.
How You're Attractive:
You are very affectionate and inspire trust.
Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Respected?"

Monday, August 21

New entertainment center





I recommend you get the pre assembled version... pic 1, before, pic 2, me dying over the instruction manual; pic 3 sandra pretending to be supportive even though i have parts left, pic 4, said instruction manual, pic 5, finished entertainment center complete with cartoon!

Sunday, August 20

Good conversation always ends this way.


Summer fading

I took the dog around the neighborhood for a walk tonight, and I came to the realization that summer is over. The sound of children up and down the street is a normal thing on our dead end road, but tonight a somber silence filled the air. No little bodies running out to pet the dog, or darting by on bikes. Tomorrow is the first day of school here. The warm breeze made just enough noise to hear through the leaves, and skeleton bicycles littered the sidewalks. It was almost as if you could feel the goodbye summer song on the air. I remember being a kid, the dread of that first day back. I felt that little bit of longing for childhood as I rounded the corner to my porch lit house. I have to smile thinking of all the protesting, all the 8:30 baths and lights out by 9. All the hours of homework, the walks to the bus stop, the learning of life. If I knew then what I know now, hehe, isn't that always the way. So a little moment of silence for all those little shits heading up and out at a ripe early hour tomorrow, we have all been there, and the ride is never as fun as the end of the journey, but the stuff you cram in your head is yours forever. I feel a little like a motivational speaker, so I'll stop now.

My new car!



ok, that's it about the new car, couple pics, last new car blog...

Friday, August 18

Come on downnnnn

You're the next contestant on the price is right, tell me what i've won!
thats right crackola , you've won a brand new car....
with payments and shit, but i have a new car. a real grown up vehicle, with only 26 miles on it. imagine that...
it looks just like this one.

www.caranddriver.com/previews/8276/hyundai-tucson.html

weird how that works, one day you wake up and live in a real house and have a real budget, and get to buy a new car....yawn stretch...
p.s. I hope the bathroom floor is all snuggly d, way to get marshalled!

Plant dork talk


Today I got up bright and early and headed downtown to the convention center to rub elbows with other plant geeks such as myself. I came away from the experience with about 30 ink pens emblazened with company names and logos, a couple bandanas, a sombrero and a ball cap, not to mention the various beer coozies. The plants of course were the highlight for me, around this corner or that, tucked behind the latest bobcat tractor, or high tech sprinkler would be a booth with a few little exotic plants just waiting to be oooohhed and ahhhhed over. I also picked up some small business info, toilet reading mostly, but you never know, one day I just might get motivated and venture out into this business stuff. Anyway a bright fun flashy plant morning was had by me, and now I;m hungry.

Wednesday, August 16

Today is my friday


"Peace in the struggle to find peace
Comfort on the way to comfort
If i shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love"
~Sarah

Wednesday, August 9

Long day


I am so glad I don't have to work tomorrow. I'm beat. So's sasha, I just wish she were still this little. Her little doggy pudge hangs off this same pillow on all sides now, she needs sideboards like me. hehehe

Pretty Pretty


I think I want a bumper sticker that says ,
"Stop and smell the fucking roses you assholes!"

Hehehe, I hate retail on 104 degree days. On a lovely note, the butterfly phenominon is still going on. There are like a bajillion butterflies migrating this year. The early drought killed pedator bugs that eat them, so we are all filled up with butterflies down here!
This butterfly is one i snapped at the wildseed farms.

Sunday, August 6

RAIN

still no rain...so hot...so hot...

Saturday, August 5

Toot Toot Toot


Now I know you can't really see this, but it says I have smarts real good. A whopping 70 percent of the people that take this test fail the first time around. So here is me doing the I love plants and now I can prove it happy dance! woot woot happy dance!

Friday, August 4

Opinions are like assholes...We've all Got one!

I was reading around on your blogs tonight, the deathy ones in particular. It stirred these thoughts and questions in me.

Have I ever known anyone that was hurt so badly, killed, or desecrated in such a way that death would be the only punishable offense to redeem their family?

Have I ever known anyone who was sentenced to death for an unpardonable crime?

The answer to both is no, (and I am thankful for that) I don't feel valid in casting a vote, but I will say, I can sell tickets if the other parties around the world want to get greased like pigs and fight it out naked.

all this talk of death and pigs makes me want bacon...

Thursday, August 3

Tasty Freshness


Afew tomatoes, and a nice chunk of sweet basil from my garden. woot woot