I don't like me, you shouldn't either!

I don't feel good about myself today. I have squashed the positive and accentuated the negative in myself. I know what you are thinking, and yes , you are right. These are my feelings, a lot of me and I going on, and I should just get over it. Well, I don't want to , I'm just gonna ride it out. The last few years I have made a point to not wallow for long periods of time, and to be more positive and happy, but I have discovered, if I don't give myself some time to point the finger at myself, and give myself a reality check every so often, I become a crazy emotional asshole. So today I play video games, drink beer, and ignore the world. My head has a way of trapping me some days, and a little thought that should have evaporated days ago will linger and fester, and I'll think it to the point of self combustion, which is what is happening right now, so back to the playstation, the mind numbing, and the pissing in the general direction of all you chemically balanced people that don't get it. That is all... Perhaps I'll learn a new song on my guitar.